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Find Your Strong Podcast
Encouraging women to find what FEELS good in terms of food, movement and their bodies. Let's challenge the wellness w*nkery and start a new conversation.
In each episode, Christine and Ela discuss their thoughts on diet and fitness fads, speak with fabulous guests about their experiences with finding peace with food and movement, and interview experts so that they can share their insights and knowledge with you.
The hope is that together we can change the narrative around nutrition and exercise and help you find YOUR strong!
Find Your Strong Podcast
Movement, ADHD and Finding Balance. YOUR Body Stories.
We are so grateful to Nicky for spending time with us and chatting about her body story, how she found balance in her life by exploring movement, and how her recent ADHD diagnosis helps her navigate her relationship to food and movement.
Nicky, 44, is from Exeter and lives with her husband Chris. She has suddenly found a love for movement in the last few years and will happily rant on about diet culture for ages – we are so here for that, Nicky!!
A member of Body Image Fitness, Nicky has been exploring intuitive movement and eating for a while now, and it has helped her advocate for herself better and understand that her weight doesn’t equate to her health. She is an avid reader and has been very proactive in learning more about diet culture, the non-diet approach to well-being and how neurodivergence fits into the picture. We are incredibly grateful that she shared her insights and lived experience with us in the podcast. We loved recording this episode and learnt a lot from Nicky sharing her story. We hope you will, too!
Here are a few links to resources we mentioned in our conversation:
Balance and ADHD
https://psychcentral.com/adhd/postural-sway-adhd
https://coachbit.com/the-parent-bit/balance-exercises-an-alternative-treatment-for-adhd
https://www.healthline.com/health/fitness/postural-sway-adhd
https://bodyimagefitness.co.uk/
Nicky’s amazing yoga teacher Meg’s Insta handle
https://www.instagram.com/__yogawithmeg__?igsh=MWVxa3MxYjh2azMwZQ==
Are you simply fed up with hating your body? Are you stuck in the 'earn and burn' cycle when it comes to exercise?
You are not alone and your body is NOT the problem
Please reach out if you would like some support. We both have limited slots for Intuitive Eating and Strength Coaching, so get in touch with Christine or with Ela.
AND if you enjoyed this episode, please share and follow the 'Find Your Strong podcast' and if you have time, write us a short review. It would honestly mean the world. Love to you all, Ela & Christine x
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Ela Law: Hello and welcome back to another episode of Find your strong. Podcast we have the very big honor today to speak to Nikki, Nikki and I have known each other for a little while now, because Nikki joined my intuitive eating course at body image fitness a little while ago.
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Ela Law: and we thought she would be the perfect guest to chat about her own body image story her own
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Ela Law: story with intuitive eating. So we are very, very lucky to have her with us today. So
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Ela Law: welcome, Nikki. Hi!
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Nicky Hallam: Hi, thank you for having me on the podcast.
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Ela Law: Absolute pleasure. Do you mind just introducing yourself a little bit before we we start asking you lots and lots and lots of questions. Just tell us a little bit about yourself where you live and what you do.
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Nicky Hallam: Okay. So my name is Nikki, and I live in Exeter. So
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Nicky Hallam: body image fitness is very much based in kind of Newcastle area. So I think I'm 1 of the people that's furthest away
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Nicky Hallam: from them, and
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Nicky Hallam: and I work for housing association.
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Nicky Hallam: I'm married married to my husband for quite a while now, and we don't have any children. We don't have any pets. And
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Nicky Hallam: he's a writer journalist. So he works from home all the time
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Nicky Hallam: I work from home quite a bit of the time.
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Ela Law: Wow! How does that work out.
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Nicky Hallam: Well. The pandemic was interesting.
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Nicky Hallam: I'd never worked from home before, not really. And so when the pandemic hit and I was working from home, I was very often found
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Nicky Hallam: in his office, saying.
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Nicky Hallam: Do you want a cup of tea?
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Ela Law: Oh!
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Nicky Hallam: Can we have a chat? And cause I was used to being around a lot of other people?
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Nicky Hallam: and yeah, eventually, we've kind of settled into it. So and yeah, we'd be quite strict about breaks, like.
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Nicky Hallam: Okay, I'll see you at 11 when we'll have a cup of tea together.
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Nicky Hallam: But now it's more kind of settled.
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Christine Chessman: Oh, it's I have a similar experience. I work from home and my husband works from home.
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Christine Chessman: I find it really stressful. Nikki
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Christine Chessman: really stressed.
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Christine Chessman: I'm just like the house is not big enough for both.
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Nicky Hallam: No, we. We live in a bungalow, and we're at opposite ends.
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Nicky Hallam: Also, our jobs are very different. So he's very much like head down, getting on with stuff.
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Nicky Hallam: I'm usually having more meetings. I think if we were both having meetings
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Nicky Hallam: it would be too much, because we'd always be interrupting each other and hearing each other. And but he's just quietly getting on
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Nicky Hallam: with his stuff, whereas, yeah, I'm a bit more chaotic in the way that I work.
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Christine Chessman: Yeah, that sounds more like it.
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Ela Law: It sounds like you found a good good way of working with each other in the same space.
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Ela Law: Nikki, do you mind sharing a little bit about your food and body image story with us and the listeners just to sort of see you know where you started, where it all began, and maybe to where you are now. With it all.
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Ela Law: however much you want to.
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Nicky Hallam: So yeah, I'll try and do a kind of quick run through, and so on, the the kind of exercise side.
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Nicky Hallam: I've never been one for exercise. And
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Nicky Hallam: and so I'm very surprised at this point in my life that I'm talking about exercise as something I enjoy.
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Nicky Hallam: I can't run, I can't catch, I can't throw. And so all of that stuff at school is, that's what you do. And I wasn't very good, so I would kind of avoid it
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Nicky Hallam: as much as possible, and and really hated the kind of competitiveness of it.
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Nicky Hallam: I quite like exercise, and it does feel quite good because I found something
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Nicky Hallam: you know that really doesn't work for me, and I had resisted for a long time, because, although
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Nicky Hallam: and they're quite obsessive. But I I won't be like that. And then, of course.
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Ela Law: yeah. So it sounds like the sort of whole relationship with food started off okay, and it was when you were older, that things kind of went a little bit diety when you noticed what other people were doing, and was there any peer pressure, or was there any?
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Ela Law: Was this more more on you as in. I want to.
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Nicky Hallam: I think more. It was a health thing. So when I was younger I would go through periods where I didn't really eat very much, and other periods where I would eat a lot more.
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Nicky Hallam: and never really thought too much about that. So I'd get comments, you know, from people who'd say, Oh, we haven't eaten very much, or
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Christine Chessman: and schools very prescriptive, and what it's or PE classes are set in a certain way, and if you don't, if you're not good at that particular sport, that's it. And there's so many people have so many stories about themselves and movement that were created in PE or at school when they were 13, and they were made to feel shame for not
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Christine Chessman: for your health. You had to
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Christine Chessman: start making a change. But what made you choose
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Christine Chessman: body image fitness, which is obviously a different way
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Christine Chessman: to move your body. So it's did you look at other things first? st
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Nicky Hallam: but I couldn't sustain it, so I'd do the exercise, and I'd feel great, and I'd do for a few weeks.
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Nicky Hallam: and then, in about probably 2018 2019, there was a local group set up here in Exeter, called Fat Health, with a Ph. Ph. 80, which was subsidised classes for people who were in bigger bodies
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Nicky Hallam: And it's kind of like a light bulb moment when somebody says, if this doesn't work for you, try it this way.
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Nicky Hallam: you know, if this doesn't feel comfortable. Do this, you know, move your belly out of the way, or whatever it might be.
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Nicky Hallam: okay, so it doesn't have to be. You know exactly how other people do it. And through that I found my Yoga teacher Meg, who I still work with now, did her online class and have one to one sessions with her? Well, one to 2, because my husband does it as well
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Nicky Hallam: and and online classes. And then that led me to other providers kind of in the space on social media. And particularly, I think, Becky, from misfits Becky misfits, who also works for body, image fitness which kind of led me there.
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Nicky Hallam: And it's like this whole world kind of opens out where you see people who look more like you do, and move more like you do.
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Nicky Hallam: It's people who are kind of the same.
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Christine Chessman: Yeah. Becky's a previous guest on the podcast. She's fantastic. We love.
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Nicky Hallam: She's great.
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Christine Chessman: Absolutely amazing. We had canoa green on the podcast a few weeks ago, and she's Oh, I love her so much. But we did talk about the importance of representation in the fitness, industry, and even within this non diet space there are a number of providers who are in thinner bodies.
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Christine Chessman: And how important it is to have a diversity of instructors so that you can, if you want to work with somebody who actually understands your body because they embody what you are, and they move in the way that you move. And it's very important to be able to access that. And I think that's why that's my opinion on it.
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Christine Chessman: And that's what Noah was saying, wasn't it, Ella? That.
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Christine Chessman: Know it's wonderful that there's a lot of of thin non-diet Pts, and that's great that you know that that's that they're in the space. And
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Nicky Hallam: But then, if you see somebody who is in a bigger body, or somebody who's in a smaller body, but gives you the adaptation.
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Ela Law: Does. I assume that is huge. A huge confidence boost, really, because if everyone was just in a thinner body who was in that in that arena, it could be really, really off putting
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Ela Law: very exclusive and excluding. I mean, it's a similar kind of situation in the in the nutrition world as well, you know, even in the intuitive eating world a lot of people are in thinner bodies, and I have to include myself in that, and often feel like I may not be the best person to talk about certain.
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Christine Chessman: Yeah.
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Ela Law: Because I'm missing the lived experience. All I can do is sort of educate myself about and listen to people sharing their experience. So yeah, so it's a very similar picture to the to the fitness world. And I think body image fitness. Does that really well, doesn't it? Because there is a range of different bodies
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Ela Law: and a huge amount of.
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Ela Law: you know adaptability. And you know, you pick what what works for you.
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Nicky Hallam: And I think also the representation of all the other kind of intersectionalities as well. So you know, having people from different ethnic backgrounds people with different disabilities or neurodiversity, people from the queer community.
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Ela Law: Yes.
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Nicky Hallam: yourself represented. You know, if you look at football, it's always been about the men's game until more recently, when the women started to do really well. And now there are
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Nicky Hallam: they didn't see that representation quite so much so. I think it's really important in.
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Christine Chessman: And it's it's breaking down those stereotypes, isn't it? It's that it's so interesting. You're saying that about the football. Have you seen the video that's gone around.
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Christine Chessman: Can you run like a girl? And they've got all these people doing these little runs, you know, kind of all sort of Dinty runs, and and then they've got a girl who's actually running, or can you fight like a girl? And it's like.
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Ela Law: I know what you mean. I don't know the word. I'm I'm losing words by the day, so.
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Christine Chessman: But it is the fact that women you know it previously it was like, Oh, can you fight like a girl? And it looks very different than just, you know. If you're going into box, are you going into play football, or you're going into, why can't we do it? Why can't we be offered the chance to do things that previously you thought we could not do.
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Christine Chessman: you know the the shame that goes along with it for somebody in a larger body, because they're seen a certain way by gyms around the country, and they're not welcomed in these spaces. There's not clothes made for people to actually go to the gym in their size, and the machines are not even made in the size that people are going to fit into.
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Christine Chessman: So there's a there's an awful lot of barriers there.
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Nicky Hallam: Yeah. And it's also really contradictory, because people will say, You know, if you are in a bigger body, they'll say.
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Nicky Hallam: And there are other people who kind of feel the same way.
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Ela Law: It's awful. And, as Nikki said, I think it is very contradictory, isn't it? One hand we're being told. Oh, you need to lose weight, and, on the other hand, is like, well, you can't, because we can't make it accessible for you. So I think there's there's more and more businesses now who
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Ela Law: who are waking up to that, you know there's more availability, but it still is so far behind where it needs to be to make it something that is accessible for everybody. And I mean that in 2 separate words
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Ela Law: it's just something that we're, I think, at the beginning of. And I think hopefully. We'll gather a lot more momentum, Nikki. You said something earlier that I wanted to just pick up on again when you said, Oh, your doctor said you needed to lose weight. And then you sort of started looking into dieting and kind of got on onto the sort of diet train a little bit.
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Ela Law: What was the turning point for you from that? Then when did you realize actually, this isn't working? This isn't helpful for me. This isn't actually.
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Nicky Hallam: And it's very, very, very clear turning point where I got home from work one day, and I'd be doing. You know my calorie counting
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Christine Chessman: Nikki. What you said there it just oh, you know, haven't been in this space for a long time. We are not listening to our internal cues. Literally, our body is saying.
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Christine Chessman: I need food. Biologically, I need food. I'm giving you a signal that I need to be fed, you know, and we're like, Nope, push it down, push it down. I mean, it is shocking, isn't it, that we? And it is so normalized. It is so normalized in the society.
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Nicky Hallam: I remember seeing something which said, If you're you're dieting, you need to get used to the feeling of being hungry, and people are scared of feeling hungry. And so it's really good
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Christine Chessman: Why can't we nourish our bodies and take care of them? Why can't that be the rhetoric rather than no. Just keep doing more? Keep doing more. Walk away from the food. Don't let yourself eat, keep no, just no.
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Ela Law: No, no, it's not. It's not looking after yourself, is it? If you do that, and you're not resting, and you're not nourishing your body that's not self-care that's not sustainable. That's not good for you. That's not going to be making you happy. The only thing it might do is keep your weight slightly controlled. But even that isn't a given. So where are you going to end up with that approach? That's just
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Ela Law: ridiculous, isn't it? I love. I love that you had a very clear moment, because for a lot of people it's not as clear cut. It's very much
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Ela Law: gradual kind of oh, I've tried about 11 billion diets, and none of them have worked. And now I'm at an age where I kind of need to
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Ela Law: focus back to you know what I want in life, but that takes sometimes decades. So it sounds to me like you.
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Ela Law: You got out at a time where you weren't sort of completely entrenched in it. So does that mean it was a little bit easier for you to kind of step away from it because you tried it. It didn't work. You thought this is ridiculous, and you you step back out of it. Or do you still feel like, actually, I've got some issues because of that.
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Nicky Hallam: It was easier to step away from, because I'd seen everyone else and thought, This is weird. And then I'd kind of had a go and thought, Yeah, definitely, it's weird. Not gonna do this
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Ela Law: Or you know you. You listen to it, and then feel that pull again right? It's
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Ela Law: I think I think it's very difficult not to have that voice. I don't know what you think, Christine, do you have that voice. I have that voice.
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Christine Chessman: We all have that voice, you know, and I'm I'm from an eating disorder background. So that's a sort of slightly different, and where I was totally sucked in for many years. And I the voice is always there. It's always the 1st voice when I go to eat anything, but I can now very easily
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Christine Chessman: But yeah, it is, it is kind of. And I think it's okay. It's it's accepting that. That's an automatic response. Because of years and years of conditioning.
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Christine Chessman: But, Nikki, how do you do you have any concept of the ozempic era and the impact that that is having? Is that something that
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Nicky Hallam: So every time I go near a doctor they're like, we must test your blood sugar. So far I'm okay, but I do know it. You know, it's mostly genetic, and that's something that's quite likely to come along.
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Nicky Hallam: Which seems crazy like it's a drug. It can make you really unwell.
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Ela Law: It's an interesting one, isn't it? Because you know you, on one hand, if your doctor says you need to have some medication, because if you are diabetic, you do need to manage it somehow, and lifestyle is, you know, not always going to be the thing that that works. So, having medication. There's no shame in that at all. It's an interesting one, though, because if, indeed, that medication then also leads to
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Christine Chessman: There's they've said that since the Ozampic Era has begun the publications, health and fitness, books and publications, the sale of those has gone down by about 20%.
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Christine Chessman: And that is a real big red flag, because that's it's like, Oh, it's okay. This can help now. So I don't need to think about health or fitness, that's and that's the scary thing, because it's not a panacea. It's not like, oh, I'll inject myself, and I'm not healthy.
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Ela Law: it didn't just happen overnight, like, Oh, I know what I'm going to do. Was there a bit of struggling about resting? Was there a bit of I don't know what I enjoy. I don't know what's good for my body, or did you did that sort of all fall into place bit by bit.
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Nicky Hallam: We would take a rest, so we would play a little bit football. We'd go sit under a tree for a bit.
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Nicky Hallam: No, it felt I mean for me. It felt so much better because I wasn't trying to compete with people who were
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Nicky Hallam: Because, you know, that's what we were doing. We weren't trying to win.
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Nicky Hallam: I can't get it, and I'm I find it quite difficult to follow. So if I'm doing a dance class
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Nicky Hallam: Yeah, because I can't. I've not got the coordination. I can't follow some of the things, but I think that it doesn't matter.
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Christine Chessman: No, no! And you know what was one of the most joyous classes I've ever taught was I used to teach the strength class, and one of the participants on Zoom was just always doing something completely different, but in a really beautiful kind of like balletic way, just completely making it up, but having the best time, and I loved it.
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Christine Chessman: I just thought, isn't that great? Because they're they're joining with everybody, feeling that sense of community and doing what works for them in that moment.
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Nicky Hallam: Sometimes. That's what you need is you just you need that slot in your diary.
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Nicky Hallam: For people to say. That's when I'm going to do it. But maybe you're not
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Christine Chessman: And Nikki, can you? Can you rest?
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Christine Chessman: Can you take a day? How do you feel about a day off without any yoga, without any strength without any movement. Does that make you? Do you feel like, oh, I need to move, or are you very happy to
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Nicky Hallam: I'm generally okay with resting. If I've got a good book you'll find me on the sofa, not moving for hours.
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Nicky Hallam: I'm not able to push through anymore. I think when I was younger I could just go.
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Nicky Hallam: It's a bit of pain, and I'll push through, and it will go away, whereas now I'm a bit older it doesn't go away like everything aches
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Nicky Hallam: Yeah.
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Ela Law: Look, love, you need to rest, I think part of the the fear of resting comes from the fact that our movement, routine or how we move isn't sustainable.
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Ela Law: because if it's sustainable, we know we can go back to it, and we know we're doing it for the right reasons, for the reasons that you know it brings us joy. It makes us stronger, makes us feel better if we haven't got that. And we just move because someone tells us what we need to do and how much of those things we need to do. It's it's not sustainable. And we feel like we've we've failed at it, so we might as well not bother anymore.
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Ela Law: But it sounds very much like when you have a rest, you rest because your body saying, actually, no, thank you, not today. But you have all of those
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Ela Law: things that you enjoy like Yoga, and like strength training that you will pick up again, because you know it makes you feel good. If you didn't have that, you'd probably be like oh, well, I failed at that. I'm not doing that again, so I think it really highlights what you just said. It really highlights how important it is to make movement sustainable, and something that
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Nicky Hallam: Yeah. And I think before I would think.
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Nicky Hallam: Why, why can't I keep this up? It makes me feel really good. I've been doing it really consistently for like a month or 2.
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Nicky Hallam: Why can't I just keep going?
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Nicky Hallam: I think I've kind of realized there were a few things I mean, I got diagnosed with Adhd a couple of years ago a year ago. Actually, I think. And
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Nicky Hallam: and so that makes sense of some of that needing the variety of doing different things. But I also need a routine. So it's getting the balance between having things planned in and having things I can just pick up and go.
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Nicky Hallam: Oh, I just fancy doing that now, or I'll have a go at that and see what it's like. And and I think also
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Christine Chessman: Yeah.
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Nicky Hallam: You know, having those aches and pains and kind of knowing the difference between.
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Nicky Hallam: Oh, I've got a bit of an ache because I've been sat still for too long at my desk.
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Ela Law: Cool.
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Nicky Hallam: I've really done something bad.
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Nicky Hallam: I need to rest. And
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Nicky Hallam: but it's having that connection with your body, I think, and those
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Nicky Hallam: The diet part of it is harder because I have to plan what I'm gonna have. And I have to have all the ingredients.
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Nicky Hallam: And then I might go to the fridge and be like. I can't be bothered.
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Nicky Hallam: especially, you know, if I've had a difficult day or a hard day, retired
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Nicky Hallam: that's not. I'm not cooking. I'm not standing in the kitchen for even like 10 min.
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Nicky Hallam: unless I can put it in the oven and leave it or put it in the microwave.
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Christine Chessman: Does it? Does it help you with the diagnosis, or does that help you? Just have a bit more compassion for yourself? With that, with that decision, fatigue, and with that like oh, I really feel that.
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Nicky Hallam: Yeah, definitely. And I think because before I knew I had Adhd, I thought.
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Nicky Hallam: well, I did have anxiety, but I thought it was all
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Christine Chessman: Hmm.
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Nicky Hallam: And the way that you deal with that is, you expose yourself to stuff.
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Nicky Hallam: And and one of the areas I had anxiety about was exercise, because when you exercise.
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Nicky Hallam: you get out of breath and you get really hot, and it feels like a panic attack.
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Nicky Hallam: But actually, now I know I've got Adhd. I don't push myself
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Nicky Hallam: into things that maybe make me uncomfortable, I think. Okay. Well, if I'm going to exercise, I make sure I've got a fan on and make sure I've got lots of water and make sure I take breaks if I start to feel a bit overwhelmed by the kind of sensory stuff.
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Nicky Hallam: and that's not something
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Nicky Hallam: I really knew about before, and the same with
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Nicky Hallam: and I can do it for a while, and then I can't do it.
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Nicky Hallam: And it really does help, I think, having that
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Nicky Hallam: diagnosis because it explains
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Nicky Hallam: so much stuff. And also it helps in terms of like exercising, is really good for Adhd, and apparently.
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Christine Chessman: Yes.
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Nicky Hallam: There's something to do with balance like balancing is really good for Adhd. So I I told my yoga teacher, Meg, I was like I need to do some balancing, because apparently it's really good for Adhd.
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Christine Chessman: You know, balancing is great for anxiety. As well, because it's really focuses your mind. You're really the only thing you can focus on is exactly where you are in that moment
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Christine Chessman: you know that overthinking brain which is just going like that actually goes. You know, and it gives you a little break
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Christine Chessman: if you're anything like me, who's brilliant, is like crap.
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Christine Chessman: All the time. I'm an undiagnosed but soon to be diagnosed. Adhd person. So.
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Ela Law: I hate.
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Christine Chessman: Hear you with the main planning. I drives me in. San, drives my husband and Sam drives the whole family into
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Christine Chessman: but and and that I think the diagnosis itself. It's not to be underestimated. The
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Christine Chessman: you know how things that you've really struggled with that. Maybe now, as things are slotting into place that maybe gives you that sense of well, that actually wasn't my fault. That was nothing to do with me. That's how my brain works.
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Nicky Hallam: That's.
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Christine Chessman: Why, I find that harder than other people seem to find it, and it's giving yourself that grace
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Christine Chessman: rather than.
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Nicky Hallam: And it makes sense of why the exercise that I find works for me is when I'm physically doing something, but also having to concentrate. So if I'm trying to follow someone in a dance class.
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Nicky Hallam: I have to really concentrate on the the 2 things they're doing and the kind of watching, and
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Nicky Hallam: and that's why you know, things like playing football don't work for me because I get distracted and I get bored easily, and if I haven't got the ball.
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Nicky Hallam: It's really boring, you know. If you're playing hockey and you haven't got the ball, you just stood there. Nothing's happening.
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Nicky Hallam: I need to be
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Nicky Hallam: kind of doing and thinking at the same time, and I think
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Nicky Hallam: that's the kind of thing that
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Nicky Hallam: I didn't learn when I was younger. You know, if I'd had that if somebody had said, Let's try all of these different things. And we did do quite a lot of different sports when I was at school. But if somebody had
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Nicky Hallam: what do you enjoy doing what feels good? Why does it feel good? I might have come to this sooner, but I think because there's a lot of focus on team sports and a lot of time standing around and waiting your turn. And
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Nicky Hallam: you know it. Just it didn't work for me, whereas.
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Nicky Hallam: yeah, you know, kind of being able to log on. And okay.
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Nicky Hallam: you know, what am I doing today? I'm watching somebody. They're showing me what I need to do. Okay, now, I need to remember that and do it.
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Christine Chessman: Hmm.
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Nicky Hallam: Kind of takes up the focus of my mind. And and yeah, you know, concentrating on not falling over.
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Nicky Hallam: not bumping into a wall, which I I do quite a lot. Always got bruises, because I'm always walking into stuff.
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Christine Chessman: Yeah. Oh, that's I love this. I love this Ella. You've got a question. I saw you writing furiously.
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Ela Law: No, I'm just writing notes, because it's really fascinating the whole idea of balancing exercises being helpful for Adhd. I've not come across that. So I think that is incredibly helpful just to hear that, and to kind of see
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Ela Law: where people who might struggle with balance actually, that might give them a little indication as to how their brain works and how practicing that can be quite helpful, not not just on a physical and balancing on one leg, but also in terms of feeling more balanced. I think that is just really, really
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Ela Law: cool to hear. I really love that. So thank you for sharing that.
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Christine Chessman: But it's a really interesting insight. What you said about sport
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Christine Chessman: and how they're waiting your turn. I never put those things together as to why somebody with Adhd might struggle with that. I hadn't put that together. So that's really interesting, Nikki.
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Nicky Hallam: I hadn't till I said it.
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Ela Law: So we're all learning today.
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Nicky Hallam: Good.
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Nicky Hallam: Yeah. I just thought, Why didn't I like it? I was really boring.
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Christine Chessman: I know it's just anything waiting your turn, or just waiting at the bus. Stop. But, Emma, I was going to ask you a question which seems like a weird question. I'm doing some work with Bree Campos. Who talks? She does a lot about body grief.
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Christine Chessman: And she said if she could wave a magic wand she would be in a smaller body.
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Christine Chessman: So you know, she's very much pro taking up space and
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Christine Chessman: and grieving the body that you wanted to have, and sitting with it and accepting, you know, going through the stages of that and and bargaining, you know, going through all of the stages and getting to that point of acceptance.
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Christine Chessman: But equally, she said, not not osembic, not but if she could wave a magic wand she would. She would take the center body. She would take the smaller body because it helps her navigate
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Christine Chessman: would help her navigate through life a little bit easier, and it's just asking you the same question. Would you have you got to a point of acceptance where you actually are? Happy as you were, and
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Christine Chessman: would choose to stay
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Christine Chessman: in the body that you're in? Or would you ever want to
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Christine Chessman: wave the magic wands.
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Nicky Hallam: Oh, yeah, I'd wave the magic wand
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Nicky Hallam: for sure. Yeah. I mean, however
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Nicky Hallam: much I might accept the body that I'm in now.
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Nicky Hallam: it does make things more difficult?
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Christine Chessman: Like.
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Nicky Hallam: People
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Nicky Hallam: do have stereotypes, and people have thoughts which quite often they will tell you without you asking for them. And and there are assumptions that people make. And and it's quite, it's actually quite ableist. Not that being fat is a disability, but
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Nicky Hallam: assuming that people can
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Nicky Hallam: exercise and assuming that people have got control over what they're eating and what they could eat.
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Nicky Hallam: And and I think
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Nicky Hallam: it would be easier to be in a smaller body because you can
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Nicky Hallam: fit in seats like, you know.
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Nicky Hallam: Got arms on them
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Nicky Hallam: pretty much. Okay. But you know you go to the cinema.
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Christine Chessman: Yeah.
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Nicky Hallam: Sometimes, and being able to buy clothes on the High Street, and just walk into a shop and try something on that's in your size, and
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Nicky Hallam: you know all of those kind of things. And you know we talked about healthcare earlier walking into a Gp surgery and not have them just go. Oh, whatever it is, you need to lose weight. You know the kind of classic. Oh, you've got an ear infection. You need to lose weight.
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Christine Chessman: Right.
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Nicky Hallam: And and luckily I don't have a Gp. Who's like that now, and
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Nicky Hallam: but I have in the past, and I think there are assumptions that people make, you know they will
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Nicky Hallam: assume. You know my previous Gp. Had assumed that
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Nicky Hallam: I was eating
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Nicky Hallam: I don't know what like 500 Burgers a day or something. I don't know what I thought, and that I didn't do any exercise.
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Nicky Hallam: And actually, that's not necessarily true. And if you're in a smaller body. I don't think people make those same assumptions.
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Nicky Hallam: I know if you're in a very small body, say, talking to my therapist recently, she's in very small body, and so people will comment to her. You need to eat more.
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Christine Chessman: Yeah, and.
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Nicky Hallam: So I think it kind of affects everybody. But yeah, I would.
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Nicky Hallam: I'd take that magic wand. I think most people would.
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Ela Law: Hmm.
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Christine Chessman: And and I think it is really, you know, we watched, we talked about the movie or the documentary, your fat friend, a lot with Aubrey Gordon.
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Christine Chessman: and it was like seeing the world through her eyes, which you know, for people who are not in fat bodies or not in larger bodies. It's
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Christine Chessman: so valuable to get a glimpse into what it's actually like to navigate the world and have to think about. You know how you're gonna sit down, or what shops you're gonna go into, or
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Christine Chessman: you know how you're going to be treated, what people are going to say to you in the street, not being able to get care at a doctor surgery for an injury or an issue that you're having. You know we people here do not live in or have that lived experience have no idea what that's like.
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Nicky Hallam: And I think I'm
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Nicky Hallam: quite privileged, like I'm a Cis white woman.
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Nicky Hallam: and
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Nicky Hallam: I'm reasonably well educated.
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Nicky Hallam: I'm happy to, you know. Talk to you
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Nicky Hallam: a doctor as another kind of human.
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Christine Chessman: Yes, I am.
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Nicky Hallam: And put my thoughts across, and I'm getting more comfortable at kind of fighting my corner. But some people don't have that privilege in being able to
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Nicky Hallam: say that or navigate those things. And I think I'm really lucky
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Nicky Hallam: that I've learned what I've learned, and I'm really lucky that I found body, image, fitness, and people kind of associated with it. And I've read
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Nicky Hallam: different books now, and I've learned so much more
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Nicky Hallam: about
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Nicky Hallam: you know where all of this comes from, and the kind of misogyny and racism that the mi and and all this kind of stuff comes from
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Nicky Hallam: that. Actually.
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Nicky Hallam: that puts me in a much
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Nicky Hallam: easier place, because
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Nicky Hallam: I know I can counter some of those arguments, and some of those things people might say
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Nicky Hallam: and other people might not.
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Nicky Hallam: How's that?
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Ela Law: Is that something that you would would sort of say to people who are maybe at the beginning of realizing how how much damage has been done to them that you know. Educate yourself about these things so that you feel more equipped to deal with all of those stresses during your normal, everyday life.
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Nicky Hallam: Yeah. And what I would say is, it will make you really angry. Yeah.
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Ela Law: Yes.
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Nicky Hallam: So be prepared for that.
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Ela Law: Agree.
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Nicky Hallam: Yeah. So we we read the beauty myth for the body image, fitness book group. And
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Nicky Hallam: and yeah, I think that made most of us pretty angry.
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Ela Law: Free! Yes.
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Nicky Hallam: Yeah.
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Christine Chessman: I mean, there's so many books we should put a few of them in the show notes. Actually, there's we've got a lot of recommendations. And you know there's
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Christine Chessman: I absolutely agree, I think, though, the importance is having that community that bolsters that, because even though there's all this knowledge, and we know about the racist roots of diet culture. We know, you know, the vast majority of people out there are not aware of that, and are kind of just living in the culture. And just sort of it's being normalized everywhere and not really thinking to that. So you really need to have.
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Christine Chessman: you know, a community around you because we are swimming upstream.
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Ela Law: You know.
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Christine Chessman: You're swimming that, and you need that bolstering of the community. I think.
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Nicky Hallam: You need to. You need to curate your Instagram feed. Yeah. And yeah, follow all the people from body image fitness. And and the people that they follow.
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Nicky Hallam: and then you'll get a good kind of community, because I think
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Nicky Hallam: people who are within that diet culture. If you try to tell them any of this stuff. We'll just look at you as though you've got 3 heads.
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Christine Chessman: Or just just think you're wrong. Just think, you don't know what you're talking about. Yeah.
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Christine Chessman: And it's Ella. Any parting words, questions.
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Ela Law: Oh, I could just continue this chat for hours.
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Christine Chessman: Yeah, me, too.
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Ela Law: We should probably shouldn't take up much more of Nikki's time. It was just so
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Ela Law: so interesting, and thank you so much for for your time. I just. I thought it was a really really interesting conversation. I don't know how we managed to get an hour done, and it felt like 10 min. Really.
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Christine Chessman: Nikki. I didn't use any of the questions that we had script.
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Ela Law: No, no, I've got. I've got them on my screen. I'm just looking through them. And I'm like, Okay.
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Christine Chessman: It's like we.
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Ela Law: I think we covered quite a lot in conversation of the things that we wanted to ask. So.
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Christine Chessman: But it's just yeah tangents. I love a tangent. But, Nikki, thank you so much. We really appreciate you coming along and and being so open and honest and just telling us your experience. It really means a lot really does.
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Nicky Hallam: Thank you.
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Christine Chessman: Thank you.
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Nicky Hallam: Great.
